Our "LT"

Our "LT"

Thursday, March 3, 2011

I am a failure

Why in the world did I do this to myself? I just finished my proctored exam for Public Administration. I am taking 12 hours online at a local community college. I failed it terribly. Talk about another blow to my self esteem. I am sitting here trying to think why in God's green Earth I thought it was a good idea to even think about returning to school. I am 40 years old. I haven't seen a classroom in since 1996. I graduated from Respiratory Therapy school in 1991. I have lost my mind. Did I want to make myself feel bad?
Today the Captain went to talk about his PTSD and lead a class at the base. He misses the Marine Corps. I wish there was a way he could go back. I miss it too. Life was simpler then. I would almost give anything to be able to kiss him goodbye on the parade deck and watch him board the bus so he could find himself again and lead Marines. He was amazing at it.
I did talk to a few wonderful people about trying to find someone to help with his leg. God is good and is going to help me with this. One day at a time..my mother sings that all the time and it is true. The great thing is I have spring break next week. One more test...then break!
Thank God!!